The last time i blogged was when it was 92 days away and now its only 69!
Initially i wanted to do the #100daystoWTB tag but tk jadi because 1. I forgot to post. 2. My life revolves around work and OT so there’s nothing exciting that i did for the past few days. My boss even told me, i have a hunch that you’ll be leaving us after this audit and after your marriage. Hmmmmm….. Idea bernas tu. Penat balik rumah 12 malam hari hari. But only time will tell.
The nearer I am to my marriage, the more my mom opened up about her marriage with Ayah and all her struggles that they had to face until this day really made me respect them a whole lot more.
It is never going to be easy. Its alot of hardwork, dedication and patience. Ibu always say, as a wife as a woman, patience is really important. Something that younger people (me) lack of. She always ask me if im ready and/or telling me that i have to be a certain way, do things a certain way and be skillful in all things. Not because of the stereotypical kampong thinking of all women should be in the kitchen. She wants me to be independent and not be dependable on the husband a 100%. She too mentioned that anything can happen. Absolutely anything and the dugaan during marriage is 10 times worst than being engaged. Its good to be able to stand on your own 2 feet and support yourself when things turn sour.
Its not a lie that guys look at other girls. Everyone knows that. Its also no lie that girls too look at other guys. Tipu la kalau ada yg tk setuju. Tepuk dada tanya hati. Terus terang cakap, i also do look at other guys and abang knows it too. Hence, ibu also always pesan to always cantikkan diri and before you put on your make up or anything always niat that im doing this for the eyes of my husband. Cantik untuk suami, “ikat” suami dengan kecantikkan diri. Always remind me to shave, to put on bedak, to always buy baju baru especially undergarments. Tkkn nk kasi suami tengok kiter pakai coli seluar dalam yg koyak koyak. Dorg pun tknk tengok. Malu la.
Before this, whenever she gave me advices about marriage, i brushed them off, thinking that it wont happen to me becauee you know she got married in 1992. Now 2017, times have change. Hahahahahhaha. But no. Times may have changed, but human nature still stays the same. She put the importance of the role of a wife behind close doors. To her, if Im a certain way and very pleasing to the husband there is no way the husband would find someone else because there is no one else who is going to please him like me. *snaps snaps*
Also she placed an importance to jaga pakaian and image the husband. Kalau baju koyak, jahitkan. Undies longgar, belikan. Baju ronyok, gosokkan. Its a tough job being a wife. Of course people can say that nowadays women are career driven, they work 9hrs everyday no time to entertain the husband whims and rants. Husbands also have 2 hands and 2 feet, boleh buat sendiri ape. Yes memang, tapi kalau gitu kenapa kahwin eh.
Things will never be the same after marriage. There will be no night routines of watching youtube vlogs, or stalking people on facebook or twitter. No more late night suppers. More dishes to wash. More cooking and cleaning to do.
My thoughts are all over the place right now. Thinking about the kind of wife I need to be for the husband. How I should plan my day to make time for cooking and cleaning. To spend quiet time with the husband. The kind of wife that will reflect the kind of husband that I have. Thoughtful, kind and sweet. The kind of wife who knows the likes and dislikes of the husband behind close doors and to be able to recite it like a broken recorder. The types of under clothig he’ll like on me.
At the end of the day, its my duty to ta’at to the husband. Not as a slave, but as a partner. He is my Imam and he was chosen to guide me to Heaven and I am to assist him so that our journey will be smooth. He is answerable for my sins, and ill be really guilty if we went to Hell because of me. Haha.
Treat him like a king, he’ll treat you like a queen.